i don't believe in perfect love.
for me, love always comes with a little bit of hate sometimes. just a fine line between the two.
but that's okay, because if a person can evoke such strong feelings of love then its quite natural that they can get yu so mad that yu feel like yu really just hate them like the scum of the earth.
plus, some love-hate relationship makes life interesting. and maybe a little bit depressing.. but then, there's make-up sex to cure it all isn't it. haha. unfortunately i am not getting the make-up sex part, so i am getting a bad deal in it all. daym. someday lah.

btw i am not "emo-siew" lah. just some trainride-thoughts.

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with each passing day, i love him more and more <3
not bryan lah.. prof wong is my new love.
today, he ordered lunch into cardiac cath for us! he's the first ever tutor to order lunch into OT for me! zomg, some love. chicken chop and spaghetti/rice in super cute microwaveable containers that i wanted to take home. unfortunately, some very hardworking cleaner auntie threw them away when i left it outside the ICU during mini-tut. fark.
anyway, i am so loving paeds cardio more and more each day. and it has alot to do with prof wong's uber teaching. and i can now pick up diastolic murmurs! such an achievement :) awesome lah! love this posting, but its only 2 weeks..

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we met the cutest, funniest and most intelligent down syndrome kid today. she was just randomly standing in the middle of the ward, and when we reached she gave us a welcome sticker! and she was smart enough to give girls a snow white and boys a dwarf!
she shook all our hands real hard to thank us when manny gave her a sticker. and gave uber high fives. and dragged us to stand in the middle of the ward to fa zan. just so darn cute.
after making friends and giving her fans to give out to the rest of the ward, some friend told us that apparently she has a murmur! talk about friends with benefits! and then she positioned herself in bed all ready for us to examine!
cuteness.
down syndrome kids are actually darn cute, cos they have like no inhibitions and are super friendly. and happy, despite all their problems. the way people can be simple and happy makes me look at myself and feel completely retarded sometimes.

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today prof told us to go catch a movie in the afternoon, and i did just that. so i caught 10,000 BC.



and i think camilla belle is a total babe.
she looks a little bit like lindsay lohan to me in the show, i don't know why.




i really do think she's damn pretty lah!
the guy is not bad too lah. though he looks damn dirty, he has rather good abs. plus, he can talk to the speartooth!

the show is kinda crap though, the plot is full of nonsense.
but jumper is still more crap. that got bryan real mad, cos he was kb-ing 10,000BC so i told him flat out that jumper sucks worse (he thought jumper was good. like wtf, seriously)
i think i am a bit of a sucker for shows with like big time action shit with battles like lord of the rings style.

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ok, time to read up on natural history of TGA if not my natural history with be death by strangling/whack on the head tmr.

i kill you!

so i am reunited with manny again, and ssrb too!
and i remember once again why i freaking love prof wong.
great teaching within short periods of time, funny acromegalic expressions and comments.
only 2 days into the posting, and he has already almost whacked manny and me to death. "scared!!!!" haha manny, yu are adorable.
he also highly doubts the ABRSM for my grade 8 cert. no thanks to my horrid sense of picking up murmurs. ah well, at least heart sounds S1S2 are heard! :)

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tuesdays used to be gangrape days, but now tuesdays are great cos prof absconds in the aftnn.
so we had a good lunch at bugis! at manny's recommendation from the fat girl's recommendation in urban, we had:
yellafellas freshly fried fries with all kinds of uber topping.
manny had chili crab, i had the poutine (beef gravy and cream cheese!) and ssrb had the cheese and sour cream topped with bacon bits.
ABSOLUTELY BUTTON BURSTING!!!!
thats my new term for fab food. cos i was wearing a button blouse, and after that i felt that way.
we were so hungry, we started eating while walking before even finding a seat. so no pics.
but go give it a try!!

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i blew tons of cash this IT fair.
i bought:
3x ink for my photo printer
1x laser printer - which is damn sexy in the printerworld now cos it has a sexy black skin.
1x laser toner
1x thumbdrive
50x cds

and today i bought a nelson's.

argh! brokebrokebroke!!!
new york, how!

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EH WAYNE:

i told him. and then
prof wong: who is wayne. handsome anot?
manny: no.
me: i did the ernest uncle tremors thing which means not wolf ugly but drunk fuck only

and then prof wong didn't care about you anymore.
haha too bad, not hot.

quote of the week

"neurology is medical masturbation"

cos yu run millions of tests to find out what's wrong, but yu can't do jack shit about it.

i don't really understand his explanation, but i still think its damn funny. cos the immediate thing that came to my mind was manny. and manny+wanking in the same thought process is just zomgwtfpwnage. sorry manny!! haha ;)
i suspect it has smtg to do with wanking not orgas enough as real sex (ie surgery) lo..
surgeons all love to describe things as sexy.
appendicectomy is sexy (actually i do think open appedicectomy scar is sexy haha) and fancy surgeries are sexy..

back to the point..
damnit lah, more than half my posting is neurology! i got 10weeks worth sia.
and more paeds neuro than general neuro. wert.
all freaking mt sinai's fault. angmoh kids better be hell cute.

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anyway, GS is officially over.. though i still have to go back do project lah..
but daym, no more drinks!
me being a typical kpo shit, i frickin love all the gossip that goes around at drinks sessions.
more informative than a tutorial on BGIT or wadever. not that i had a tutorial on BGIT lah.. haha

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IT fair is evil.
it deceptively makes yu want almost every single freaking thing there. cos it appears cheap, so good deal must buy!! yes, that's the auntie in me.
i wanted an ipoddy, and then a laptop with my excuse being going overseas need to store photos in laptop and use internet keep in contact with people! (but my apartment no internet, so..), and then a laser printer, and a secret frivolous desire for a new camera cos they are just so hot. like wtf smile shutter. i wanted to be irritating and say, like wad if im trying to take a dao ah lian photo? haha
i have successfully eliminated 3 of them evils, but i still want the hp laser printer. $149 and it comes with cool skin.. so convenient for printing notes, which confirm chop sticker and stamp in m5 sure do hell alot. now i always have to run to photocopy auntie's shop in NUS. freaking cross country lah.
but after m5, i wont need it to print notes anymore.. plus, i just bought new inks for my photo printer at the fair. fuckk... today last day, need to decide asap!

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eh, christine siew chiu hsia, reply my email lah!

quotable quote

" i am very happy you are not so brave. cos if you are, i would be very scared."

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i am indeed glad i wasn't hardworking enough to stay for the full duration of yesterday's AAA op!
i stayed from 3-8pm and felt uber tired already from all the contorting and more humping than the cage in MOS.
apparently it ended at 430am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what the bla!

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anyway, today is like my perfect day.
i woke up at 516am and it was raining beautifully. beautifully cos it was the perfect rain for perfect sleep. so i decided to pangseh jeremy the mongkey for SDA and skip my last chance for witnessing the m&m catfight.
i woke up at 830am and it was still raining so that it looked like 7am. so i slept some more.
till 11am.
then i woke up and found that my face is significantly less swollen. i can now smile and chew!
then i weighed myself and found that i had lost another 1kg.
then checked my email, and got some good news from mt sinai.
then i received a call from krisflyer that my missing miles have been credited. (they initially refused to credit the miles cos it's been more than 6 months since my flight)
then i had a good lunch with my momma.
then i wento NTUC and found my favourite mandarin orange green tea! its only sold during CNY and my usual TM branch has run out of stock. so i bought 2 x cartons :)
then i reached sgh in 20minutes for a super good 2hour tutorial with sookitchi (i am purposely spelling it wrong cos his name is damn cute lah)
then ben chua said we are having brunch tmr after rounds. he said we're gonna have the biggest steak we can find! i don't know if he's just diao-ing me abt my wisdom teeth, cos since when people eat steak for brunch!? but it has gotten me all excited!! like, steak!!
and then i went home for an absolutely scrumptious dinner.
and now i am just bumming around doing nothing.
i am just in a super good mood that its so unlike me its disgusting
:):):):):)

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in the true spirit of being in a disgustingly good mood, i shall do something super un-me. which is load photos!

xian's 23rd!

happy birthday xian!
leaf spectacle
to all judo girls: yes this is xian's present! and yu guys owe me 10bucks haha.


shokudo

between us, xian and i ate 1)unagi fried rice 2)fried seafood udon 3)shitake mushroom tempura 4) 3 sticks of yakitori 5) sashimi platter
my excuse was that it was my last day of food freedom cos i was extracting my wisdom teeth the next day. i guess xian's excuse is that it was her birthday. she's so small and skinny anyway, must eat more lah!!

starbucks
to satisfy the birthday girl's green tea frap crave.
i used to hate making the green tea frap. cos we used real green tea powder, so whenever yu open and close the container, the green tea powder poufs up like a atomic bomb cloud.

cartel
for half-price cakes to celebrate the end of xian's birthday and the coming of beng's birthday

stupid xinyi insisted i take a photo with her. haha
ok lah, i wanted to take a photo with yu too lah!

next top model wannabes
version: watch

pseudo-serious
there was actually a much more pricelessly hilarious picture, but i was laughing too hard and missed the shot. daym.

happy

seductive/sexy
damn, i can't help but laugh every time i see this!

i don't know what to call this. amp chio?
damn, my watch doesn't even look like a watch! haha
like my tuition kid said last time - "teacher, this watch damn good lah. when someone irritating asks yu the time and yu don't wanna tell them. yu can just say, 'this is not a watch'."

anyway little xian, don't destroy yur watch again!!!

stupid is as stupid does


fine, so maybe its retribution for laughing at stupid people and doing twit dances at them.
today was my ultimate stupid day. gawd.
yu know those things yu say that yu didnt realise was so goddamn stupid till yu've already said it and its too late cos everyone will forever think yu're a moron already? i did it multiple times today.

i asked the neurosurgeon when we would know that we have drilled into the ventricle.
like hello, yu drill thru the skull, not drill into the brain lah!!!!!!

i insisted it wouldnt be possible for blood to flow to the kidneys through an iliac-renal bypass cos that would mean flowing upwards against gravity.
like hello, even my mum can tell me the carotids are the prime example of flow upwards against gravity!?

then to top it all off i called myself using sirui's phone so we could exchange phone numbers.
within 2 minutes after we parted, i saw a missed call and called the number. completely forgetting that it is obviously sirui lah. zomg. how fucktarded is that.
the conversation was like
"hello this is caroline, did anyone call my number?"
"its me lah!"
"huh?"
"me lah! yu used my phone give yurself missed call remember?"

and then i drove home at 8pm without my headlights.

i would like to believe all this is only because i woke early today. hardworking and me don't seem to go well together.

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something else disturbing is that i am increasingly finding dr obama rather hot. it may have something to do with his super surgical skills and his ngtzekiat aura. and maybe also cos he's obama, cos i do seem to have a thing for brownies.

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i also recently discovered an incentive to the disgustingly far off zhangde carpark- at night, it's guarded by the occasional cute mat. the cisco mat is dressed like a hazmat lah, so its the next best thing!

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ok i think i shd stop being more stupid and procrastinating, and go do some proper stuff instead.

a post with no point

so 3 weeks of GS have gone by.
no actually 3 weeks of vascular surgery have gone by, cos i've been sufficiently lazy to have not seen patients from other teams in GS.
in fact i've been so lazy that i still haven't clerked a single patient!

listening to hardworking stories of those in gen med and emed makes me feel slightly like a shit.
like i'm wasting time and money.
but then again, elective is about electing what yu wanto do right?
or at least that's the poison wayne has fed into my mind.
but ultimately, at least we're squeezing a project out!
and i've seen some interesting surgeries, which involve marinating a graft in the patient's blood. like, !!?
and i have done some stitching, although it was terrible enough for dr ben to say i should just go do cardiology. which isn't bad actually, cos i do like cardiology lor.

but actually, i think my favourite part of this posting is the fact that i have had the time to do what i like.
i have met xian and xinyi almost weekly since cny day 3, which is so pricelessly rare. and i was able to meet beng too, which is so extremely super rare cos beng is like the busiest person ever.
i have had early days so i could go out for movies with my mom.
i have met the harderworking bunch of med friends over sushi tei (my absolute fav) and juno with wacky subtitles.
i can take off whenever i want, so i was able to make time for wisdom teeth extraction. yes i kinda look like a chipmunk now..

so even though i may ultimately seem like a lazy shit in terms of medical students, i do feel pretty pleased actually with what this month has become. because life does not and should not solely revolve around med school, especially since this is the last 4 month break without exams bitches!!

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i am also pretty pleased cos since i extracted my 4 wisdom teeth on friday, i have lost 1kg/day!
that makes it 2 kg so far, but i think it'l stop here now, cos i have progressed from porridge to kway teow teng already..

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in other happy news, my genious twit sis got into MIT for her masters and i got a spot in mount sinai for electives!
which all fits in great, since she can come over from boston to new york to visit!
i do wish i had gotten either gen surg or cardiothoracic surg instead, even plastics actually cos i do wanto see these parts of surg that i haven't got to see as yet.. but paeds neurology is ok too lah. cute angmoh kids!!

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ok this post does sound a bit too happy for my standards, but actually i'm not really that happy lah, cos i am so craving pizza but i can't have any cos of my wisdom teeth op :(

one night this week i got an sms:

"hello.. sorry to disturb u this moment i like to ask is skipping rope makes me grow taller? & wad age will i stop growing height?"

my ex-tuition kid is damn cute lah!
but i must say his english sucks. i am rather embarrassed since i spent the past 4 years teaching him english. fuck eh.

i thought he was worried abt being short cos he wanted to ask a girl out for valentine's, but his reason was actually

"is just that all my friends taller than me then i like a short kid"

haha really damn cute. i actually kinda miss him, esp watching retarded you-tube videos with him. haha.

the only thing worse than sitting thru a xray conference is standing thru a xray conference.

we might seem rather hardcore- reporting at 730 am for xray conference, joining ward rounds, attending scopes, watching bypass, seeing reviews and blue letters, and zomg staying for night call!

but not much active participation was needed actually, and i had a rather long burger rush break. (damned admin removed mame32 and banned all games websites. bitches.)
the only interesting thing in scopes was chilli in a macik's gut, bypass isnt the spectacular heart bypass but a femoral-tibial artery graft watched from about 3m away (ie cant see shit lah), blue letters are the usual crap with lots of kb-ing of "oei stupid lah yu read textbook and manage lah wad for refer to me", and night call was 1 x kfc chicken for dinner.

the thing that gets me the most is all the standing and walking. oh well, been having too much of a sedentary lifestyle these past months. its so damn cui but my feet are actually aching. gawd.

anyway, the 1 x kfc chicken was like a tea snack and i was autodigesting. so we went for dinner at the new japanese marche-concept restaurant shokudo at raffles city.
its not bad, but stay away from the steamed bamboo rice which is plain rice with unagi/salmon/chicken thrown in a shallow bamboo thing and steamed with absolutely no seasoning. it costs only $3.80, and with good reason. dont find out the hard way like cheapo wayne did.
otherwise, i liked the fried rice, omelette and the dessert crepe.
unagi fried rice is my current favourite jap thing to eat, replacing the sashimi salad with sushi tei dressing. its a tough fight with sushi tei golden roll though, but golden roll has been shrinking so not so satisfying anymore (ok shit, prawn story)
oh and drinks are disgustingly overpriced, so must sneak in yur own drink!

aiyah, i proved my own theory right. i only have stuff to blog when doing posting.
one of today's funny moments:

dr 1: (about the pt with nasal carriage of mrsa) oei! why is she on the -poke nose- thing (nasal prongs)?!

dr 2: oh cos she said she is breathless when we remove it. even though sats dont drop

dr 1: aiyah! then poke the things in but don't connect the tube to the oxygen lah!

no prizes for guessing who is dr 1.

blue magik


i'm super free now, but i have absolutely nothing to blog about!

i watched some good movies, but they're already old news and it'd be boring to talk about them.
otherwise, there is really nothing much interesting about eating sleeping and tv.

i do have an awesome video that i will upload one day. it involves gummy foo, wavy fibres and pink rubber bands. sounds retarded already right? ahahahha.

i have come to the sad realisation that i mainly blog about retarded stuff that happens during postings. and now that we aren't going to hospitals already, that's probably why i have nothing to blog about!!!
tragic!
wtf's happening to me!

sequelae of patho mugging has left me with the compulsion to attempt to incorporate everything i read into memory for regurgitation. fuck!

and everytime i read about death in the papers, i automatically do the coroner's system in my head and feel sorry for the person that they gotta be mutilated by an autopsy.
yes i know, i am so weird.
thinking about death makes me go all warped. i don't like it.

plus i couldn't stop thinking about heath ledger whenever i studied forensic patho.
strangely i feel sad about it, though its not like im a big fan or anything. plus there is the slight morbid interest in reading the articles abt him. how weird.
at least i didn't go watch brokeback like gummy!
though i must say that the dark knight trailer looks really awesome.
why so serious? yikes, some disturbing last role.
but anyway, i can't wait to watch it!

but first, 27 dresses tmr!

november is my new birthday month

thanks for the celebration guys.
as usual, i didn't know it was my birthday. and as usual, manny is good at sucky lying. last time it was mints, this time it was i had stuff to do at home. wad stuff? stuff lah. that is so un-manny. very wayne, but un-manny, but still i didn't suspect anything cos it was supposed to be gummy's birthday celebration.

anyways, pitstop was great. cos its empty and yu can scream and laugh for all yu're worth without feeling too idiotic. i hate brainy games that require common sense, cos i really do have none. poor lynn had to pair with me for cranium and lose cos i spelt jettison as jettinson. hah.

steamboat after was good too, though i've decided i'm not a fan of ma la. tmd chili oil impermeates all the floaty cooked stuff, esp the white fishcakey thing with a hole in the middle. that hole is a perfect spot for chilli flakes, oil and seeds to collect la!!! and once yur chopstick is polluted with chili oil, there's no turning back cos yu can't pollute the chicken soup side or yu'd get fucked by the non-chili people for burning their tongues.

after that we wento wayne's house as usual, cos its the only house with alcohol.
manny and me were the first team to arrive, and we decided to do martian hellos to all the cars passing wayne's house, just for fun and cos we're weird. it was manny's idea really.
and later, i won $1.80 at holdem. my first win!

btw, thanks manny for the lifts to and fro!
i like the driving-manny, cos she gets angry and actually gave someone the finger!!!!!
"road rage is fun when yu're the one doing it" or smtg like that. haha!
but she says only to do it in situations when yu won't have to stop or the person can come out and bash yu up.
i say, do it anytime anywhere! especially when yu're in a pissy mood. great therapy for the angsty soul.

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one week of sgh o&g is over, and wayne always gets the weird ass funny tutors.
le coq has a kennethmak aura, rat baby hair, a sharp mean tongue and funny-ass comments so that though he's pwning the crap out of yu, yu just can't help but laugh like shit.

i was assisting an op by le coq after my tutor abandoned me (and pissing my pants cos i really dont know how to assist), and then i was told to suction while he cauterised.
so i suction the blood lah.
MO said, no suck the smoke.
so i suction the smoke lah.
but the stupid smoke wouldn't disappear into the sucker, and kept spiralling up uncontrollably. so i chased the fucking spirals with the sucker. after alot of me shaking of the sucker all around, lecoq couldn't stand me anymore and said "just hold it still at the start, don't wave it around like a wand!"
zomg pwned.

for the last op, wayne and me were assisting. it was the finishing bit of stitching up the rectus sheath and everyone was carefully retracting silently for my tutor to get a good view of the rectus sheath. then suddenly a loop of bowel popped up through gap in the sheath, and wayne said: ooh.
immediately everyone turned to him, and lecoq said: what, why?
wayne: er, nothing.
lecoq: yu are always making inappropriate noises.

!!!!??!?
after just 1 week together, i wonder what made him say always.
wayne must really suck, haha.

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otherwise, sgh is really pretty boring. filled with garrulous harpy climacteric incontinent fogies.
gawd, i hate o&g for painting a bleak future for all ladies.
apart from the occasional sweet heart warming birth (which inadvertently comes with ALOT of pain, so really what is the cost-benefit ratio?), all we have are pms, dysmenorrhea, menorrhagia, contraception (which are all pretty gross in terms of side effects, except maybe yasmin. but i still say stick to the stupid condoms lah), becoming a whale, abdo distension, cysts fibroids endometriosis adenomyosis CIN 1 to infinity and omg dont even talk abt the climacteric

argh

pringle

O&G write up is the sickest bastard of them all.
freaking tedious guidelines to adhere to, like a freaking SOP of writeups. ugh.
i'm finally done with procrastinating and finally done with the damned piss of shit writeup!
frickin 10 pages!? sick lah.

and i only just realised that there's QnA tmr, at 730am no less.
gawd. lucky wayne save my balls.

argh i wanna watch my hbo lah. sian

first up,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTINE SIEW!
frickin 21! :)

bet it was great fun, tell me what yu did for celebrations!!

sorry didn't wish yu or anything on yur birthday itself, was on call and delivering babies with the same bday as yu!!!!
had to resist being totally out of point and telling every mother that her baby has the same birthday as my sister. haha!

oh and i'm not going jay chou lah! no free tickets, no $, and i haven't been following up on him so don't know his latest songs. cui ah.

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and so we traditionally ended our kkh posting with a sickly late day, and again its cos of the same tutor: cardio wong. gawd, some 1hour plus waiting, and just for his autograph. wtf, some movie star prof. but he is really so freaking funny- hiding elusively in the interconnected rooms of the cardio clinics, and when i finally caught him and showed him how many of us were waiting for him, his response: i'm dead.

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man i miss paeds, and i'm seriously so sick of vaginas.
not that i've seen that many.. but seriously, a lifetime of yur head between someone's legs at the (usually) hairy ccb. especially colpo, got vinegar marination somemore!! smelly and boring. everytime i see those spread legs in clinic, i cannot get over thinking about whether the woman cleaned up well if she wento the toilet before clinics. and then i involuntary hold my breath and self-asphyxiate a little. like as though the asphyxiating ride to kkh (recall the pwning route of 67 thru little india and geylang) isnt enough to kill my brain cells. in retrospect, hengsai that today's UG had only G and no U, cos i think vagina plus piss would seriously be point of no return. even if mr metrosexual running the clinic was wearing any cologne, i think i might still have died.

anyway enough whining, what is more worth blogging about was OSCEs!
in case yu're a nerd, no la not tips la!!
osces are the only fun bit in o&g. cos we have awesome actors like wayne and randal, who just love pretending to be girls and pwning each other. and we have tutors who are both disgusted and tickled by the rotbish we say cos we just don't freaking know wad to say. and for me, also cos no need to see and smell vaginas.

re-enactments may not be exact words, cos i think some memory cells died while i was asphyxiated.

1) wayne vs ran #1
wayne as a girly: doctor, how! will i be able to have children? cos... cos.. i'm in love with this guy! (in the true spirit of playhouse(m2) eh).. and he expects alot from me! .. how!

wayne as a girly: doctor, can yu explain ALL the blood results to me? like, why do i have testosterone!!! am i a guy!

2) wayne vs irene chua (the patient)
patient: doctor, how can i still have retained POC after my abortion?? can i sue my previous gynae who did the op? how can this happen!!

wayne: well, that's because, yu didn't come to me!!!!!

3) me vs irene chua (the con)
con: how do yu stitch up the uterus?

me: (from wayne's hint) 2 layers

con: always 2 layers? wad about 1 layer? what if i'm the best surgeon and i can do it just as well in 1 layer?

me: well.....(and everyone thought i was going to say something intelligent cos i took so long trying to think).... that's great.

ok maybe after typing it out, it don't seem so funny anymore. but maybe we would do a live re-enactment if yu ask lah.
aiyah, there are lots more funny things, but after typing irene chua's name, all i can think about is choon keok and the handphone ringtone.

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yesterday, i assisted delivery of a chindian baby. damn sweetie couple, after the delivery when most husbands just cf the baby and ignore the poor beached-whale mother, this guy actually kissed his wife on the forehead and said i love you. although he did noob the process when the woman is already G2P1.. i admit i almost puked, wished i wasn't there, felt super intruder and pretended to be fixated on the CTG that wasn't recording anything. but still, it was a damn sweet sight. and is also probably the reason why women scream their fucking lungs out that they can't take the freaking painful contractions anymore, wanna die, and enough! no way no more kids! but in 2 years, zomg, there they are lying in the labour ward once again. women are such suckers for love.

anyway, the baby was cute. it had an indian head and a chinese body! hahahaha.
no lah, it just looked that way cos of the congestion from prolonged 2nd stage after head out. heehee. ponzi, don't laugh at me lah. i lack sleep, but not really that retarded.

so anyway, i have decided: C-section for me!!!
tmd potentially 10 hour labour that may convert to c-section? hell no!
but then again, i might have to eat my words next time lah. but for now, its C-section. and i think epidural fucking hurts, just freaking GA me lah.

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sianz, i still got irene chua's hp ringtone in my head, better get lost now before the rumination takes over!

this is an understatement,

but i really really fucking hate playhouse.

its 2am, and i have painstakingly gone thru abt 50 dinosaurs, 3o flocks of geese, 20 owl hoots, 5 crickets, 50 knocks, 20 whooshes, 40 squawking birds, 20 drumrolls and 10 fanfares. plus searched like crap for tribal bullshit, reggae nonsense, an eerie witch song, a french song and a LION DANCE SONG.
gawd, i am downloading stuff like chariots of fire, wong fei hong, la vie en rose...

wtf!!!!

oh, and did yu know that the survivor theme song is ancient voices? WERT.

and i must say the flocks of geese are the fucking most irritating things ever.
owl hoots come in a close second.

honestly, why am i going thru such crap?
sound does not even fucking get any recognition or award.

fuck.

oh well, at least wayne's got it worse than me.
oh but if we win, at least he gets something.

anything wrong with this picture?

i am once again addicted to the reality bitch fight crap that is america's next top model.

so, 2 week holidays! and the first few days have been spent watching america's next top model and grey's anatomy online.
it really pisses me off when some episodes are not available!! like yu watched 18, but 19 is not available. so do yu just go on to 20 or wad!? cos if yu go onto 20, yu missed some bits and cant completely get it. (though they do have the irritating "previously, on grey's anatomy" that previouslys till damn long ago) and it would be completely cock to watch 19 again if yu do manage to get yur hands on it, cos yu alr know the future.. but at the same time yu are just damn gian and just wanna watch all the episodes nownownow!!!
argh, SSRB!!!! I NEED YU LAH!!! come back from tioman and supply me with shows! :)

kkh paeds is shit BUSY. a whole tower of patients, but no time to clerk cos we're just packed with tutorials. our crazy group rep is trying to break his record of 5 tuts in a day. -_-!!

a typical day in kkh goes like this:

morning asphyxiating ride in 67 with the china and bangla workers. (i not racist ah, i also got say chinese smelly. but bangla more smelly.)
breakfast is either macs or mr bean (life's simple pleasures). its hard for the auntie in me to choose between them, cos both have coupon. and both can be $2 only. i usually go for tuna pancake with super soya milk cos it gives the illusion of healthyness, and i like to sit in the sunbean area and watch unkles train agvs/kids running ard.
then its a blur of tutorials, the occasional clerking, waiting for the f slow lifts, laughing at ben for still being noob at directions in kk (aiyoh, haven't been to the wards!!), watching cute babies sleep, watching kids pretending to be each other's dog by tying toilet paper ard their necks like a leash, ph33ring the fretful child, watching a NAI-kid squeezing milk bottle milk all around his cot and considering lifelong contraception, checking out potential hot mats in the making/the occasional hazmat (so wad if i like brownies. white chinks just dont do it for me if yu can't already tell), being ks-ed by chiongsters, looking for green dots (in my desperate search for the elusive green dots, even the blue dots start looking like green dots), searching in the secret ward, stealing air con from the homo room, smelling prima deli waffles as my GPRS, choping raptor as my slurpee buddie on wednesday, getting KILLLed by our cardio tutor ( I KIILLL YOU), building rapport with khai:), getting pwned by daprof (2h standing tutorial on guessing game), watching the mantennae in action, losing my eyeballs in my head at wayne's CIC "joke" ("" cos i don't even count it as a frickin joke, can't even make the status of lame joke).....

that's why i'm so tired i can hardly blog.

and so ends my prawn story.


and, i think balls of fury is nice!
maggie q is hot-daym as usual, and the fat guy is just plain funny. we think his funnyness is partly cos of his fatness. haha.
i give it --- a salty popcorn and a coke! cos that's wad i had during the movie.

there's a new season of survivor! survivor:china.
gawd, now that's some tough shit to survive if yu ask me.
way before the cardboard paos came out, i wento china and had coke that tasted like soya sauce.


anyway, our neonate tutor looks like bellatrix lestrange.

damn disturbing lah. seeing her with the little babies in icu and in my head i keep hearing her going "weetle weetle potterrrr...."

bryan got to book out today, and he didn't even tell me till he was already out and it was late.
but that's ok.

then he said he was going zouk with his friends, cos its ladies night so there will be babes everywhere.

oh wtf, i sure feel great rotting at home doing my favourite part of the posting - the fucking writeup.

oh fuck la, i am having eternal pms this month.

my current favourite quote : stickers on the wall!!!

but nothing can beat my beloved ngtzekiat's what did she say?

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anyways, day 1 of new posting. and seriously, ophthalmology is bad for my eyes.

i started the day rubbing my eyes cos i was sleepy, and i ended up poking my eyeball with my very long nail.

then i wento the clinic, and the doctor immediately asked me to do millions of fundoscopys and even let me use the slit lamp. like wtf!?!
i can't even freaking remember how to use the fundoscope, so i ended up doing the scope peering from like half a metre away, till i saw the doctor in the opposite room doing it like nose to nose with the patient. then i was like oh my god now i remember. and half the time i couldnt see shit, and just fakied him with alternating 'yah i can see the disc! but its fuzzy.' and 'i can't see anything but black spots'. which are all partially true lah..

unfortunately i got caught in a lie when a ahmah with cataracts came, and he asked me 'did yu see the red reflex'. i forgot all about doing the red reflex cos i was close to asphyxiation from not breathing while nose to nose with the ahmah. so i just quickly said 'YAH! I SAW!' which was a gg. cos apparently cataracts=red reflex is dulled/got opacities blacking it out.

so after that i decided to be honest and blind the patients with the bright lights in my numerous attempts to see the damned disc. and i really saw them, but i ended up with super dry eyes from not blinking in case the stupid disc suddenly disappears.
the asphyxiation is really killing me too. cos we're like so close that i don't wanto breathe on the patients, though they just blatantly breathe all over me. once i really almost died so i had no choice but to let my breath out thru my nose in gentle little puffs, and the patient pushed me away!!!! quite violently!!! wtf!!!!
the slit lamp is worse. its damn hard to move plus im terrified i'll poke the patients eye out with some bit of the machine. so i ended up examining the ahmah's lower eyelid instead of the eye.
i am so not for ophthalmology.

the doctor was super onz, keep spouting stuff like 'perfect beautiful amazing superb' all over the place. he dragged me to see lasik surgery, which was uber. cos each takes like 15minutes, and i heard yu get like thousands of bucks for it. ker-chinggg!!!!
most of the time in the room i was just really pleased that i got to wear the blue doctors hat :) like, finally rid of the fucking white bathroom cap!!!

the uber enthu doc was gonna drag me around for more crazy eye shit if not for wayne (squirming around like a worm looking for babes with his divergent squinty eyes) ran into the both of us. after realising 4 friends are waiting for me, i was released. oh phew. i have never, and probably will never, be so glad to see wayne.

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for some non-nerdy stuff.

go catch knocked up!





it is really fucking good.
when i was in cali, it was being advertised all over the place as the most hilarious comedy this year. and the one night stand to own all one night stands. all that advertising shit lah. plus its from the people who did forty year old virgin. and it has katherine heigl! (aka izzy the babe doctor from grey's aka the alien sister in roswell)
so when we couldn't get tickets for harry potter (fucking juveniles overcrowding vivocity), we caught knocked up!
best comedy we've watched since like telladega nights and borat. both have ali g that's why their funny. :)
anw it's really funny. and it totally highlights the differences between guys and girls. seriously, cos bryan and me were laughing at different parts sometimes. so, something for everyone. if yu're bisexual then its yur lucky day, can laugh like fuck all the way through. its M18 so plenty of boobs and even a vagina for the horny boys. and its 2h+ long! comedies are seldom that long i think. damn value for money lah, some more got safra discount. haha shit so auntie.

i know underhype is the way to go, but shit i really find the show really damn good lah.
i am so gonna buy the dvd!!

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ok now i have to go read wikipedia on diabetic retinopathy before i get screwed tmr.
i am probably going to do smtg stupid instead (eg. blogging, like now), but heck at least i tried.

patient of the day

doc: explaining post op analgesia options. aiyah, boring stuff that no one wants to know la, except nerd med students like maybe me to increase knowledge to prevent rape by evil tutor.

pt: aiyah doc yu choose lah. and after i sleep, yu can do whatever yu want to me, i don't care. so long as i wake up, i'm still in singapore, and not in heaven. or hell.

lucky i wearing mask, if not he can see me giggling.

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i am relatively glad this damned lonely posting is ending soon.